Your Journey is Not a Competition

Lately I have found myself seeking and searching. It feels as if I am on a quest and there is an urgency surrounding this. If I were to ask 10 people about this they would each give their opinion of why this is occurring. Then I would probably have 10 different reasons to ponder. Do I really need to sift through their impressions of why I am moving in this direction? No. And so I began meditating about the whys and what-ifs in my life.

My partner is on his own quest.  He's an avid reader and his love for studying history is something he has enjoyed all his life. Lately he has delved back into some of his favorite eras and is rereading various accounts and looking at them with fresh eyes. He likes to share every new tidbit and we sip coffee in the morning discussing all he has uncovered. Although I really have no desire to study history at the moment, it seems like a puzzle he is trying to solve for the sole purpose of obtaining knowledge and it brings him pleasure and this is in turn brings me joy. At times this joy has been interrupted by an anxiety that lies just under the surface as it creeps into my thoughts. I usually tell my partner everything and yet this I kept to myself. I allowed it to sit on the back burners of my mind simmering for a few days. What could be causing this unrest? It could be any number of things and so it seemed pointless to worry him about it and so I tried to ignore it. Through meditation I learned what was hiding in the corners of my mind.
A few months ago I had enrolled in a workshop regarding psychic development. It's intense and I've had to apply myself in areas very new to me.  As I studied and practice different techniques such as psychometry and telepathy I found myself becoming more anxious and I couldn't understand why.   And so I decided to ask for help during a meditation. I placed all my anxiety out before me and said, "something is bothering me can you tell me what it is?"  I always journal after all meditations and this is my entry from that particular day.

Saturday, June 23, 2012  

My Meditation: We are all on a journey and traveling at different speeds. It is not a competition and there are no blue ribbons. Just as my spouse is seeking knowledge regarding history, I am seeking to learn psychic development – for my own personal use - I am not to worry about comparing myself to others as I am progressing at my own pace designed just for me. I am not seeking information to do psychic work professionally, I am learning to access the treasures that await me to enrich my life. 

After writing this in my journal I went about my normal routine. I was startled by this message that appeared on a friend's web page. I smiled knowing this was a confirmation of what I was told. It's a lesson well worth remembering.

 By meditating daily we will continue to surround ourselves with a wisdom created to help us along our journey. We must continue to look within as this is not a race it is our own personal expedition.

To learn how you can meditate please read my book Sæ-sii Meditation: How to Find Your Bliss in 15 Minutes a Day

Your Life is a Pizza-You Choose the Toppings

Throughout my life I have stumbled through many obstacles. In my youth I won two gold medals sprinting down a track...but I could not jump the hurdles. Life's detours seemed to find me at every turn. I had dreams of going to art school and an unexpected pregnancy seemed to bar my way. I say unexpected because I was using birth control at the time and this was quite a shock. Faced with the decision to abort or continue the pregnancy was life changing. Of course well intentioned advice givers were plentiful...but they all seemed to be saying things that contradicted one another. How can anyone faced with such an enormous decision hear their inner voice when they are surrounded by the opinions of others? When the dust settled I was left alone with my thoughts and for me it was a quick and easy choice- I was having a baby:) He's an amazing 21 year old 6' 4" bundle of love now and I can't help but wince when I think of the advice of those around me. Of course they meant well, but honestly, it was none of their business. I only wish I had been meditating when I was faced with this, perhaps I would have avoided a lot of self doubt. Abortion is the choice for many, many women and I strongly feel it is a PERSONAL decision and I honor and respect that right. It just wasn't an option for me- end of story.

my baby

Daily meditation connects us to a wisdom that is greater than anyone you can reach on the telephone. Life's paths leads to many hills and valleys. Using meditation can help you discover your strengths and weaknesses enabling you to walk with purpose and perhaps stumble a little less. Do you want to remove yourself from a toxic relationship? Is there an area in your life that you need to regain control of? Are you happy with who you are? If not, then why not still your mind and begin to practice meditating in silence? By removing the noise you will begin to hear the guidance that has been waiting all along.  Start finding your inner beauty that is waiting to be set free by unraveling the onion skin of self doubt. We're all a work in progress and we can make choices by adding or removing anything we wish. If you want to vent with others go right ahead- if you want to have a pity party- no problem, this again is one of many choices.

You are a beautiful being who is blessed and unstoppable! Begin today...forget about yesterday and start fresh with an attitude of self love. Go relax take some cleansing breaths and find your inner voice as it grows stronger cheering you on. To learn how to find your inner harbor of peace please click How to Begin.

Even Spiritually Minded People Un-Friend

I have been careful to surround myself in positive energy. Troubles come and go like storms washing through my life almost as often as they do around my home in The Florida Keys. Meditation brings that peace and calm that centers and grounds me and it is with this energy that I wish to reside. But how can I stay there when I come into contact with unfavorable energies that seem stuck in mud?

Finding that island of peace has helped me to grow and learn. My heart seems to expand each day opening my eyes to the needs of others, and I find myself venturing into uncharted waters. I was invited to join a social network group where like minded people encouraged and supported one another through good times and bad. I met some wonderful people and the dynamics of the group felt like a spiritual boost each time I stopped by. But something happened to the intention and focus of this group and like a small snowball it began rolling and growing until it became an unstoppable mound of negative energy. Snarky comments, snippets of anger couched in defensive statements reminded me of my dogmatic church days... and it all felt so wrong. People pointing fingers with accusations and as I tried to make sense of it... tried to remove myself from this anger I was reminded of what can happen to good ideas when you lose your passion of purpose.

As children we often found ourselves in situations when we felt unliked...unwanted. Maybe we were pushed aside by the older kids, maybe we felt we were unpopular or maybe we just gave up trying to fit in. Many of those children have grown up to raise children and grandchildren of their own. Perhaps even some of the people in your social network.  And here they are years later no longer on the school ground but in the internet playground. There is a disagreement and instead of working it out, understanding the lessons to be learned, challenges that need to be faced they do something that is much easier...they UN-friend you. It's something our parents and grandparents were never faced with and it can happen in a click of a keyboard. Like a slap in the face from someone you may never actually have met and only knew via a thumbnail icon on your screen. All trust vanished in a heartbeat. What can we learn from this?

Walk with integrity, continue to be true to yourself. Help one another and when negative energy starts to raise its ugly head- don't get wrapped up in it. Remain silent and meditate. Give yourself permission to cut the ties and move away. Even writing this blog I questioned if this was keeping the negative energy up in the air twirling like a plate on a stick. It is my hope that this post can help others to stop and think before they say or do something (like un-friending) that can truly cause others to feel less of themselves. Learn how to AGREE TO DISAGREE - and use it wisely in your relationships.

We're each on a journey and cross paths from time to time and hopefully it's to share the joy and blessings we find along our way.  We may stumble and fall... but we can pick ourselves up, brush away the dust and look ahead to a brighter future... one filled with strong winds, rough seas and sunny days. Peace to ALL of you, may your days be filled with love and light always.

To learn how you can meditate please read my book Sæ-sii Meditation: How to Find Your Bliss in 15 Minutes a Day

A Spirit Stopped By

As I told you in my last blog, I met with a medium Bernie Scott and it was quite a unique experience-- sort of an experiment you might say.  We connect once a year and I journal everything as her messages often come to light months following these sessions. A few days leading up to our appointment, I sat in several meditations asking the Universe specific questions - but adding a new twist- I requesting that my answers come through Bernie.

I am an author illustrator working on my own books. This is new for me as in the past I design for clients and I have been channeling a story that centers on endangered wildlife. I will not go into detail as it's currently in production, but basically all of my questions for this medium focused on my books.

Two months ago my sister's 62 year old husband Lee died suddenly as a result of a rare blood cancer.  So It's Your Birthday describes this experience.  Prior to his passing I packed up all of my belongings and moved in with my sister thinking I would be there to help him during his recovery, never expecting his tragic death. I was able to be there when the dust settled and the phone calls and flowers faded... my 2 week visit turned into 6. During my reading an incredible gift was given to me when Lee arrived singing a song about Pine Trees - his home is surrounded by them and his favorite golf course is named Southern Pines. He thanked me for everything I did and told me that his wife, although still grieving, is coming along strongly and he feels part of it has to do with my healing energy. He spoke of a hawk and I was reminded of his memorial service on the golf course where a lone hawk circled overhead as my daughter played Amazing Grace on her clarinet. He then proceeded to show Bernie a scene that mirrored one I have witnessed in meditations again and again, for several years now. She described it perfectly and told me Lee was taking me to this place to help me with my writing. I interrupted her to explain that it was the exact place in my meditations and that I was writing a story based on this. She thought it all seemed very odd -"where are you taking me?" she asked. He then explained that he wanted to help with the books in appreciation for what I have done for my sister. I was quite moved and thanked him. He described a location that I have researched for this endangered animal story and this reading gave me the validation that I was hoping for.

I still had one more question I was hoping to find an answer for. A few years ago I was given a mysterious message.  I was told that I would be working in video production regarding my own project. I worked as a professional video editor years ago and have moved onto publishing and none of this made any sense. I was hoping my session with Bernie would enlighten me. I had asked for some clarity regarding this during my meditations. She saw a screen with me speaking about my book and described the animal that my children's book is based on. I was speaking on camera about the reality of what I am writing about. This video blogging will be connected to my book and it will help bring awareness, I will inspire many people, then the computer screen turned into a TV screen and she laughed and said "oh my, I think you are going to get noticed big time!"

Next my parents stopped by to describe in detail a few activities they had witnessed recently and we had a good laugh. My mother showed Bernie two books open and one book shut. This was to confirm that they are keeping a close watch on my work. In truth I currently have two children's books (part one and two) and another book that is unrelated. It's wonderful to know my mom and dad are cheering me on- how fantastic is that?

So what did I learn from all of this? By using meditation to ask questions prior to my reading I was able to gain insight to valuable information that has been waiting for me. I must admit this was an experiment, but I am convinced that our guides and loved ones are always there to help us. Why not begin asking today- give this method a try and see what answers you receive. My results have left me feeling confident that I am moving in the right direction. If you would like to reserve a session with Bernie Scott please visit her website for details. To learn more about how you can meditate without any CD's or guides for FREE please click.

Psychics Are Smartphones- How's Your Data Plan?

My mother

Every so often I approach a meditation with hopes of connecting with someone other than my guides. I just set my intention during my opening protection prayer and add that I would like to connect with a family member or whomever is on my heart. By stating your purpose at the opening of the meditation you are asking the universe to assist you.
I didn't always used to do this. I thought this communication was only possible through mediumship. After all they're the telephones to the ether world, not me. I was just a person that used meditation to connect to my higher self and guides that walk with me. But, I was wrong. Since asking to meet with family in my meditations, I've had wonderful encounters with so many that it would take up too much space on this post. This communication with spirits first began when a very strong thought, more like an urging nudged me to visit a medium and so I took that step.

So what about your visitations with mediums? How often are you having readings? Is it less than a year apart? What are you searching for?

Mediums are people who live and breathe just like you sharing their ability to connect with spirits that have crossed over. Many are helpful in bringing you realization that life continues after physical death. After all - these spirits once walked this earth just like you and I. Some mediums are not well developed and sometimes misinterpret and you need to listen to your inner voice as it will alert you to this. Daily meditation will help you decipher the truth, you will know when the information feels correct.

If in fact you are still questioning that life continues after the physical death then medium-hopping may not be the best answer. However, if you have visited a medium and you have concrete 100% assuredness of life eternal, than isn't it time to take it a step further? I'm not saying you cannot enjoy those wonderful loving moments when a relative connects and you feel as if you've just been hugged, these meetings should be cherished as they are priceless. What I am referring to is this - If you want to discover the mysteries that truly lie within your grasp, why not begin there? Take it beyond "Hi dad, yes I was just out in my garden singing your favorite song- yes, the medium I am sitting with has it correct and I know you heard me, how sweet..." Take it to the next step, set your intention on making a connection that will help you on your journey. Meditate before making that appointment with a trusted medium and set your questions to the universe. If you are going to be using the connection much like a telephone, than choose your questions wisely... make the most of your minutes.

For example, maybe you have questions concerning your journey. So you sit in meditation prior to meeting with the medium and maybe you say this.

"I want to create ________ how do I begin?"
"I would like to begin doing ________ how can I best achieve this?"
"I want to relocate, but my job is here, how can I move yet keep my job?"
"I would like to meet someone that can shed some light into my problem with _______"

Now when you sit with a medium you may just get some different messages coming through. You may be given inspiration, encouragement and information to help move thoughts into action. Just try it, I am about to sit with Bernie Scott, whom I admire greatly and it has been one year since my last visit. I have set my intention - I have meditated on what I would like to know about my journey. I will update you in a future post. 

As for my loved ones, they will probably continue to pop in when I sit with a medium, and I will continue to ask them to stop by in my meditations and you can too - remember, they are always a thought away and would love to be asked in for a visit:)
To learn how you can meditate without any CDs, classes or books click  HOW TO BEGIN.

Crying Voices Open Quiet Minds

A guiding light

When is the last time you seriously looked at the people who are suffering? They could be your neighbors, family members, acquaintances or strangers...but they are hurting.
My 10 year old granddaughter is fighting a very rare disease. I will include more info regarding this at the bottom of this post. She is not alone, there are so many people facing their own personal storms. You yourself have varying degrees of stressful situations you face daily. Where is your safe harbor of peace? How can you wade through the agony of daily chaos? It starts within.

I have had many trials in my life and there have been plenty of moments when I wanted to throw in the towel...life can be so un-bearing. It was when I began to meditate daily that I was able to see the glints of sun shining through the clouds. It was when I understood that meditation should be approached as a personal commitment to MYSELF. This is not a race - there are no blue ribbons. This is a way to help connect to a deep wisdom that lies within everyone - yes EVERYONE.

One of the most amazing discoveries was my yearning desire to help others. I thought I had embarked on this personal exploration to understand myself better.  But, as you begin to truly love yourself there is a natural desire to share this.  Meditation opens the quiet chambers of your mind to reveal the needs of others. Why? How? How can setting aside 15 silent minutes daily make you want to help others? You are clearing away the noise and debris of your busy world in order to hear others crying out. Those voices are connected to you and they are a part of you. By quieting your mind and heart you will learn to listen to your inner voice that has always guided you. The next step may be more difficult at first...learn to MOVE your thoughts into action and DO something about what you have heard. You will find that once you begin down this path more twists and turns will appear. Each path brings greater understanding and tremendous joy.

Begin today and look toward the sun shining through the clouds - follow that light and begin helping others to find their own harbors of inner peace.

The disease mentioned above is Pediatric Acute-onset Neuropsychiactric Syndrome (PANS). Triggered by “strep”, her immune system mistakenly attacks part of her brain confusing it with the strep antigen, thus creating a neurological inflammation causing her to have debilitating “episodes”. Her condition has deteriorated to the point that she is unable to attend school on a regular basis. She is currently writing a book to bring awareness to this disease and yes, she does meditate:)

Would you like to know how to meditate without any CDs, classes or books? HOW TO BEGIN.

Visits from Loved Ones in My Dreams

My parents 1946

I didn't want to wake. It seemed my dreams were far better.  I had been enjoying my visits with my loved ones that have crossed and sometimes felt more lonely upon waking. My dad and his laughter my mother and her sparkling eyes and my brother with that boyish grin. Has this ever happened to you?
Realizing that my loved ones are still around me has helped ease my pain...but it was a process. I had followed that wobbly truth that others had told me... "No, we don't have the answers, God will tell you later...maybe...after you die." How is this supposed to comfort anyone? Why would a loving creator stick a clause on the end of a death certificate?

Peace has come in knowing that the physical embodiment of my beautiful spirit is but a temporary vessel. The vessel was meant for a short duration compared to the entire journey. This is a merely a small part- and for this portion I wear blue eyes and have dirty blonde hair that will gray... eventually.

If we truly embrace that we live eternally then we should be all the more excited about our visit here at this moment. It's 2012 a time when our technology is at its best- medical science has seen enormous transitions and our life expectancies have stretched longer. This is not a time to be at war with one another, to squabble amongst ourselves over petty unimportant issues. It's a time to look around and see how each of us can make a contribution to our communities, our animals and our planet.

If you have spent days agonizing over the death of a loved one, I truly send you my deepest condolences. And I hope that some day you reach a place where you can breathe deeply knowing they are all around you. Reassurance comes in stages and the process is unique to each of us. For me I know in my heart I am loved and those that have gone on want me to know they will see me again - they are merely a thought away.

Yes it is a day by day existence and there are many stormy days ahead maybe it's time we learned to smell the rain and appreciate its cool waters. Live your life with passion. Continue to build relationships- be kinder, trod lightly on the soil and send love to all that need it. You are but one vessel among many. Living in the now and knowing you are here for this moment may help you make a difference in your world.  This is YOUR time, this is YOUR day. Make the most of it and let your loving energy shine brightly. You are not alone and your beacon of hope will call out to your loved ones who have passed and they will gather near you...you don't have to wait until death to feel their love. There are no hidden clauses. Open your eyes to the possibility that you can rise and have your dreams, you only need to wake up.

 Much of what I have learned has come through meditation. If you would like to learn how you can find your own path please read How to Begin. You can do this for FREE without the need to attend a class or buy a CD.